Day 627: Full Speed Ahead

Y'all know I am so happy right now. Things are finally going well. Things are good with work, finances, kids, home. Things are just good. But there is something that has just been bugging me. Y'all I know you just been waiting for me to spill the beans about the wart and all the trouble he caused me and his deep dark secrets. I been wanting to do that to y'all. And I have told some of y'all in private all about it. I've been thinking when this divorce is over I am going to tell every rotten thing about him. and believe me y'all it's a jaw dropper. But, I can't. I have been trying. I keep writing blogs and face book updates only to take them down because it does not feel right. I know that would not honor God. I hear it in my spirit. I want to argue that it is not fair because he has been meaner than a snake and he deserves for everybody to know all about his nasty self. But there is that uneasiness that tells me no. Don't do it. I was not understanding but willing to obey. Then I went to church on Sunday and y'all know the preacher was preaching on putting your hand to the plow and not looking back. Y'all I know that is what is required right now. I got stuff to do in front of me. I can't be looking back and trying to punish him or live in regret because things did not turn out how I planned. Come what may I got a life to lead and the future is in front, not behind. Maybe some day God will give me the go ahead to tell my story. When it can helps someone, when it is a blessing and not a curse. It is a story to tell but it will have to wait because I am going y'all. Come on now.