Day one: What's for Dinner?

Hi y'all. The thing I am going to focus on this week is eating . Both physical and spiritual. I am starting here because I think it effects every area of my life. In the physical world of food I feel like a hamster on a treadmill. Y'all I have sleep apnea. Not just because I am fat, although that does not help. No, it's those dang old genetics that I got from my dad that makes the structure of my throat and jaw all out of whack. I have struggled with this since I was a teen ager. But the fatter I get the worse it gets and the more times I wake in the night because I am not breathing and the tireder (yes that is a word too!) I get. The more tired I am the less energy I have to get moving and the less motivated I am to shop and cook healthy foods. And then I get fatter and my mood suffers and I feel depressed so I eat more and get fatter. I don't mean to say that I am a victim in any way. I have a cpap machine that I should use every night. That dang thing keeps me awake(ironic, I know.) It is important because people with sleep apnea are at a much higher risk for stroke and heart attack than the average bear. On top of that I have GERD. That stands for nasty food coming back up into your throat and burning the tar out of it while you sleep. Yes, yes there is a treatment for that too. I have some marvie pills that work very well but only if you take them. You see a pattern here y'all. I don't know why but I don't take good care of me. If I lose some weight, use my machine, and take my pills I might not be walking around here like a zombie and have some energy to enjoy life. So job one is food. I am addicted to it. Fast food is my weakness. I love food. I love it like a junkie love crack. Most of the stuff in the food I eat is not even real food. High fructose corn syrup, partially hydrogenated vegetable oil, white flour. My body does not even know what to do with this stuff. So my plan is to follow Dr. Oz and use his book "You on a Diet" I have had success with this in the past. My down fall is that when my clothes are a little looser and I am feeling good I start to think that I am okay and I can relax a little here and there and them I am back where I started. But I am back on the wagon. And wouldn't ya know it! Just when I go to the store and stock up on good food (I even went to the health food store y'all) The fridge dies and they can't deliver a new on until Tuesday! Almost all of that food gone to waste! What is a girl to do? Well, I guess we will live out of ice chests for a few days. But I am plunging ahead. While I was cleaning out the fridge y'all I started thinking about my spiritual food. I used to be a consumer of the word y'all. I mean I read the Bible all of the time. Once I even read the whole Bible in one month. Y'all I even fasted. I don't do that anymore. Not since I got cable tv with DVR. Are you kiddin'? there is ALWAYS something on tv. I don't watch during the day but come 7pm and those boys are in bed My fanny is parked in that chair with a snack and a drink and my love (Toshiba) and I have three hours to spend together before I drag my butt to bed. That used to be God's time y'all. I used to study the word and write notes to myself to keep in the car and ponder it through out the day. Now I am hooked on spiritual junk food. "God give me a verse" I pray as I flip my Bible open. God is faithful I usually land on a verse that seems to meet my need for the day. I go to Bible studies and never do the home work. I catch a tidbit while tuning the radio and say "oh that was so good!" I like my God like I like my food. Quick, easy to digest, tastes good going down. And then I never burn off what I take in because it is not enough to sustain me. I have gotten spiritually fat y'all. That is the honest truth. I used to dig for the spiritual food and savor it. Now I just gulp it down and move on. But costs me y'all. And I don't want to be like that. Because just like the physical food I eat effects my whole being , so does my spiritual food. So this week I am eating and I am reading and I will be sharing. Thanks y'all.